On this solemn night we began our final advance toward atonement and spiritual cleansing with the haunting strains of Kol Nidrei. The melody pulls at the strings of our hearts. Its power seems to come from a place beyond words.
Perhaps this is fitting. What, after all, are the words of the Kol Nidrei prayer? “Kol nidrei – Let all vows that we may utter this year be void and cancelled.” We intone this text three times so as to officially cancel any obligations that we will undertake through oaths, vows, promises or imprecations. The superficial reading of this prayer has elicited puzzlement or even scorn. Is that really the most important prayer of the Jewish people?
The short answer is “No.” There are other prayers, meant to be recited daily, and not just once a year, that are far more important and sacred. But, of course, context makes a big difference. Giving this prayer the spotlight at the onset of Yom Kippur surely enhances its aura. Yet this simply begs the question. Why should this text merit its headline status? There must be something more to it.
The answer is that, in its way, Kol Nidrei points to a fundamental factor of our existence as humans. It is a mournful, yet clear-sighted declaration about the futility of trusting in words. We make oaths and promises. We say that we believe in this or that value. We declare that our word is our bond. If we have children or we teach others or in our conversations about matters large and small, we stand for truth. We are insulted if we are not trusted. And then we compromise and make excuses, find loopholes or claim fatigue, or we conveniently forget or look the other way. When Kol Nidrei comes around, we can no longer hide. We are warning our Creator and ourselves that our words cannot be trusted. As we hold up our most precious gift of speech before God, we offer a prayer of nullification, cancellation and utter regret. “Kulhon, iharatna b’hon – I regret them all.”
Continue reading →